Thursday, April 20, 2006

A Question of Love

Oh God,is love not the truth of everything? Is true love, in all meanings interpreted the pinnacle of all specific emotions, pertaining to what is or was achieved? Does it not have both metaphysical as well as very empirical definitions which those who search would find totally in congruence?

Am I also in search for the definition of love? Love between two individuals - a lady and a man? Is it by all means necessary, that both of them should be from a totally different environment? Can two, living under the same roof not be in love? Can someone who has lived with each other for a couple of decades be in love with each other? Does love have only one meaning? One definite reason that being purely sensual? Is what you feel towards your sibling based on such a perception? So if you love your sibling, is it blasphemy of human existence? Is it profanity of natural laws? Is it not divinity personified? Then why, have i never seen people love so, with utter ease? Why have I not seen such an expression for the past years of life? Why never at the least a literary manifestation which has embalmed in itself, such a truth? Are these doubts representing a death of sanity in my soul?

Why do I love my sister much more than I love myself? Why do I think of her more than I do of others in my life? Is it a try of my psyche to balance her with whom I lost? Why do I not find in her faults or defects similar to those many speak about their siblings? Why am I so very blind and dumb and deaf when thinking about her? Why is it that I know I can confide in her most obscene of my secrets without fear of rebuke? Why is it that I know that I wouldn’t feel bad, nor hungry, nor desirous of her feminity, just because she is a woman? Why do I know that she also feels the same in return? Why do I know that she feels safe within my grasp?

And god answered: “That is love. Not just love, but Divine love.

Hear this, for the beauty of a day lies on the decision you take, your willingness to forgive those who offend you, your desire to tolerate one another and giving peace a chance, and your ability to hold back your anger even when it is imperative to burst out. Those who seek peace will find harmony; those who seek wealth will find riches; but those who seek Love will find everything. So choose right. For on the canvas of eternity, I draw with the colour of love”.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

I would like to be God

I would like to be god. Or rather at least be respected and venerated by the civic and looked upon with the same kind of moral fiber they show to a deity and a spirit. I would like to live, with everyone praying for my blessings and then serving me perpetually. But now I believe that god himself might be getting frustrated suspecting a competition from me. Excuse my self-assuring statements God, but I do personally believe that I have all the indispensable qualities of divine subsistence. Please, let me give all the proof relating to my assurance of such a proposal, before you turn against me.
Evaluating and regarding your hegemony, starting with the visit to a highly venerated temple, I personally found out that all you need to do is to sit inside the serene temple room. There are people to bathe you, to clean you; to cook and serve food for you; to spend for all the things done, by hard exertion and making sacrifices; there are those irrespective of sex, age or physical strife who en-queue in the front of a piece of stone they deem as GOD; there are certain others who make big tumult in your name, at least in support, and thus try to make you much more famous than you are now. And what do u get… everything….and we…nothing. Pretty profitable for you, is it not?
But now answer me. Give me a lucid but definitive answer to these questions. 1. Please make it clear whether any person in particular knows who you are exactly…I do not, for a starter. And so do I suspect all the other living humans would be. No don’t give me your name. I am not interested. 2. Tell me what you are? Human…? Animal…? or really, just a piece of stone? 3. Give me proof of your sex. 4. whether male or female… or none? Ok, then at least give me a vision of your physique. What do you wear, still the attire of an age past many thousand years? Don’t you observe fashion up gradation? Try the channels like fTV and Trendz, you would be educated. Do you still fight with a bow and arrow? Try the nuke buddy. My god, you know nothing…naaa, I guess I should say…’‘My myself’…that’s because now I know that I am more educated than you are. So I believe you owe me that position, the one that you are enjoying right now. Come on chum; don’t tell me you are unaware of the retirement benefits you are at a liberty to avail. Even if you are below age of retirement-- which exactly is what I thought you would state-- do try VRS………
So much that we don’t know… and yet we consider you as a supreme authority over everything, and that too just when I tried to make a sketch of your appearance…so I guess its totally foolish to try making a character evaluation. Even though the books tell that you are this and you are that how do I believe something written about SOMEONE whom I consider strange?
But it is imperative, to register certain other facts, which have helped or rather hampered the whole of the world. Why have your name been hauled up along with an effort for political upheaval? If you are so strong as is been written why was it you never ever tried to put a full stop to such activities? You tried to erase me, why was that, then. Aha…I now get a faint idea of the lorry driver . It was you… I am going to register a case against you somewhere. But I don’t remember whether you were a Moslem, Christian, or some Hindu…OK…leave that now, but why 9/11, or the war of Iraq? Why all the deaths…
But it is imperative, to register certain other facts, which have helped or rather hampered the whole of the world. Why have your name been hauled up along with an effort for political upheaval? If you are so strong as is been written why was it you never ever tried to put a full stop to such activities? You tried to erase me, why was that, then. Aha…I now get a faint idea of that lorry driver. It was you… I am going to register a case against you somewhere. But I don’t remember whether you were a moslem, Christian, or some Hindu … OK…. Lets leave that now, but why 9/11, or the war of Iraq? Why all the deaths… NOW… tell me your name. Mohammed, Jesus, or Vishnu… why such minutiae in naming, at different places? And why all the discrepancies of brotherhood between the three? Or tell me are you three brothers trying to get the helm? Forsake greed … let ME in. I am already under support and care of one amongst you … I am not naming who… but, then is it not the same for all the billions of humans? Why is that each person is protected and cared for by only one amongst you?
I guess you are not experienced, or rather not competent enough. I can be a difference…. I’ll name myself. I am a male... with a specific name, I am human, I am known at least by more than one for sure, and I will also put a name for the religion that is followed by all. Remember the questions I asked you earlier… See, I have answers… Am I better than you? I guess so……………………………………….


Tuesday, April 11, 2006

watching the wheels go by..

The Idea..

Never have I, in my life spent so airily, over the past quarter century, ever received a proper answer to questions that have been aired by my psychic as well as emotional senses. I would like to be erased of all doubts that linger in me.

‘Experiences’, which a cliché tp the hoi polloi, were to me a set of bizarre debacles, after which I go a certain leg with which I steady myself on certain stages, and then started questioning with agony. Still, I stood helpless. Those who taught me words and those who taught me all other things, were just helpless on lookers.

But now, with abhorrence to all truths that I have so far learned or been exposed to, I have started to speak to God, searching in him answers to all my doubts; Surprisingly I have found answers to all doubts and get answers that contain enlightenment, truth and love. And it was always from inside me. Never trample upon your inner voice. That is God.

Try it out, and check whether your questions are answered. Talk to yourself, you will answer to you. But understand your voice.

So I thought that I would share this with you. I don’t care whether you do read this whole thing or don’t, but I will continue to post entries.